What I will never find out

There are factors in this world which are inevitable to control, even when you have the power to grasp air or water.

It's the fact of how a human mind works. It just goes in paths that can be made through sheer imagination or footsteps that will be followed. Of course, neglected paths can never be revisited. As a white rapper tells y'all, "Do not miss your chance to blow, this opportunity comes once in a lifetime, yo."

As if everything was hard enough to be pressured by a statement of such, it's kind of hard to understand why everything turns out wrong even though your mind sets it to right.

Basically, I am a person who has a mindset of having a mistake margin huge enough to open all possible outcomes of outputs of each of my outtakes. And yet those who succeed are those who have a mistake margin small enough, carefully taking measurements, calculations and such.

Of course, the huge margin doesn't really apply to every angle of all my possible viewpoints. One thing is that I'm scared to pull the trigger when there is a target sitting right in front of me, looking maybe for police officers or other people that I might hit, disturbances in missing the shot, hindrances in completing the goal. These things make me afraid to fail. Then again, I am afraid to even be afraid. So it all comes back to me not even bringing out my gun at all. In other words, though opportunities come and go, it's hard to grasp hold of it and getting into it before it goes away.

So why the inevitability? The inevitable thing that opportunities do come and go and it's up to you to quickly take it or measure it a.k.a. letting the opportunity go because of the over-measurement.

So here's the punchline and finale: I can't practice what I preach.