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The difference.

Is that I am a no one in this insane world of reality.

This is why I keep going back to my fantasy. My dreams. My own reality. I can become a superhero, a rock star, and be someone who is understood by a lot. To them I am just another extra in the background with nothing special. Been that way since Grade 1, so it's no big deal. You can't please everyone, and I'm not the charismatic type, so why bother.

I'll just stay in my own reality. Everyone'd be grateful. Here I am again with the drama that will launch a thousand back stabs.

Well, I try to make myself feel confident. I guess it's just the way I was labeled.

So much for labels and so much for my personality development. Whatever.

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Then I realized that there will come a time wherein even your closest brothers will never talk to you in the future.

Guess I was worthless all along, no matter what they tell me.

Back to square one. New year's coming. Will there be a change? Guess I'll create a year that will make this feeling disappear. And fucking change my attitude and stuff. If ever that will happen.

I'll just stop pretending that everything is happy. That is if I can do that, too.

What the fuck did I just say.

5 oomphs and ahhs:

Anne Alliteration said...

i don't know what you are thinking.

but on the topic of feeling unhappy... yeah... you don't have to hide that...

i do wish things get better though :)

Dean Demetria said...

it will. :P someday. hahaha, i still have you.

"you're perfect". twilight sucked daw. :))

Anne Alliteration said...

damn it!!! your soo sweet I love that about you and i love you hehehe

Anne Alliteration said...

oh yeah i'll admit... the movie sucked.... but the book still rocks !!!!! woohoo!!! :P

Dean Demetria said...

SEE!!!

well, as atenean boys and almost half the lady population of the world has read or even looked at it, it is.

BUT THE MOVIE SUCKS!!

nandidiin lang. :P