Exhilarating

–verb (used with object), -rat⋅ed, -rat ing.
1. to enliven; invigorate; stimulate: The cold weather exhilarated the walkers.
2. to make cheerful or merry.

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So, this is what I lack today.

Looking at the sunset alone made me think of death again. Realizing what pain there was in a different reality that only I can ever know of, it began to sink in me that the reality I am in now is just plain stupid. In short, I'd rather be in the different reality in my mind where others would call it fantasy.

Why is it that when one walks, people who walk by you with eye to eye contact seem to make you remember what was in the past. What was it in reminiscing that made me think of my asshole-like past.

Now, my mind's a haze.

Come hither, damnation.